"Every going out from the state of love leads to accumulation bad karma...”, — God told me this once many years ago. This phrase can be put as a second point right after “God is Love”.
What is meant here? Is this just another threat? Will He punish me? Will He send a dangerous illness on me? Or will He cause me to suffer during my next incarnation?
No, this way of thinking is incorrect.
God never punishes anyone. What He teaches. But our destinies we build ourselves. For example we ourselves postpone the happiness of meeting Him. And we will continue suffering from our separateness from Him as long as we do not have love within ourselves. Various misfortunes are what we attract to us ourselves, but this is not God punishing us.
I will give a couple of striking examples from my own life.
Once I saw another illegal publication of my book about David Copperfield, which was made not only without my consent and financial calculations, but this time its content was distorted — it contained some preposterous scheme inserted in the middle on my behalf.
And this exhausted my patience: I exited the state of love and disposed myself to hard conversation with the delinquent publisher... And in the evening of the same day I got inflammation of the gullet — oesophagitis: spasms were so bad, that I could not even swallow...
In the morning I could see a big black spirit, which grasped my throat, stuck to it and would not let go, trying to strangle. I rush into the Abode of the Creator, returning to the state of love — instantly recalling: “Every going out from the state of love...” And the spirit disappeared — the inflammatory process was gone almost immediately.
The mechanism here is following. When we are in subtle states of consciousness — we are out of reach of evil spirits: they are not capable of entering subtle eons. If we coarsen emotionally — then we immediately get closer to their state and become easy targets for their aggressive attacks.
Several years ago I had much more dramatic experience. I discovered that my colleagues in Moscow in their activity suddenly started to twist into different direction behind my back. I regarded this as a betrayal of God’s work by them. He Himself then ordered to immediately close the spiritual center that had been created in Moscow. And that was actually all that I had to do in this situation. But I fell into a lingering state of anger towards them. And I immediately attracted devilish powers to me: without any obvious occasion I got attacked by a gang. After that I was on the verge of death off the body for a long-time, feeling severe pain. I experienced clinical death twice and ended up physically disabled for several years. Only a “burning-through” of destructed spine bones with energy of kundalini, which I learned later, provided almost complete healing.
...In the same way every one of us attracts either happiness or sufferings himself: if we enter a state of Divine Love — we get closer to God, if we take on devilish states — then devils and demons “stick” onto our bodies and we become sick, start to suffer. This is how we punish ourselves on our own for not complying with God’s Will.
But Jesus Christ expressed this Will very clearly: love God and love each other — regardless of anything! [10].
The opinion that God allegedly has to provide us with material welfare of various kinds is absolutely erroneous. He never promised to do this for all people... He is not at all a slave to us. He is — the Lord, the Master. We are — negligibly small compared to His Universal Greatness.
He loves us and tries to help us. But to help not in procuring earthly comfort, not in satisfying our selfish desires.
His Love is manifested in His guiding us to our ultimate happiness in Unity with Him.
He is — the Master, the Absolute Lord. There is no point in grumbling at Him — at the Universal Ocean: what sense does it make? We need to accept His Will and His Law. In this case we will live in harmony with Him. This Law is: the Way to Merging with God is — steadfast Love, and whoever abandons it loses protection of God and falls a prey of hell-beings.
Let us obey His Will: this is in our interests — to go to God, having accepted his Law!
He created the entire Creation and every one of us — not for our sake. This constitutes His Evolution and His Life. And He is going to firmly implement His Will: if a man wants to go to Him — he is sure to live in love and to be happy, if not — he is going to suffer in his separateness from Him!
