Abandonment of the Lower “I” for
the Sake of Merging with the Higher “I”
This is the final part of the Teachings of Babaji. It includes Mergence of the individual consciousness of a person who has reached the highest eon with the Consciousness of the Creator. At that, the person’s self-awareness dissolves in the Ocean of the Creator.
Attempts of the leaders of some sects either to destroy fully the self-awareness of their disciples without providing them with a new substrate for self-identification or to convince them that they are already God should be regarded as incompetent and extremely harmful. One’s self-awareness must not be destroyed but transferred. And the cognition of God and Mergence with Him are not performed through being convinced or convincing oneself, but by means of stage-by-stage penetration with correctly developing consciousness into more subtle eons, their exploration, establishing in them, mastering Mergence with the Consciousness of the Holy Spirit first and then with the Consciousness of the Creator. All other directions prove to be dead-end and lead to either delays in the person’s development or to cultivation of gross vices and turning to the direction opposite from God, which is fraught with diabolization and insanity.
Work on this part of Babaji’s formula should begin with elementary correction of one’s behavior in communicating with other people.
For example, the tendency of many people to dominate over others, to behave as if they are the “boss”, to look “important”, — looks comical from the standpoint of spiritual growth.
Violence, resentfulness, jealousy, revengefulness, wrathfulness, desire to own people and things (except for essential ones), sexual desire, like any intensive wanting of something from people or from God, — all of these are vicious manifestations of the lower “I”. They must be eliminated.
Jesus Christ and His Apostles left many invaluable formulas-precepts for us: do not sit at the high place, if you want to grow spiritually — become a servant to other people, never resent or revenge yourself, regard others as higher than yourself, etc. [6,11].
Lao Tse and Juan Matus were saying about exactly the same in a very straightforward and concise way [6,11].
It takes deep self-analysis and hard work on repentance in order to get rid forever of manifestations of the “protruding” lower “I”.
We have to understand that there is no such phenomenon as “forgiveness of sins” whatsoever: God does not have such a concept.
The purpose of repentance is not obtaining forgiveness for concrete acts that we have done, but getting rid of vices.
“Sins”, i.e. our mistakes, are either consequences of our lack of experience and knowledge or specific manifestations of those qualities of our souls that are called vices.
The true mechanisms of deliverance from vices are self-analysis, repentance, and strict self-control.
If it is not possible to eliminate the vice that has been discovered and realized right away, one should recall the entire line of its manifestations — starting from childhood (and sometimes from the previous incarnations). And one has to re-experience anew mentally all situations, which one previously resolved incorrectly, but this time in the right way. Moreover, it makes sense to “play over” in advance all possible future situations when this vice can manifest again.
It is also important to try, if possible, “to redress the wrong” to those whom we harmed — be they people, animals or even plants. Even if they are not currently “alive” on the Earth — we should address them as non-embodied souls. And let us remember that God really accepts such efforts on getting rid of our vices.
We need to repent of all the instances when our non-love for other people and for God was manifested, as well as of all our egoistic actions and emotions.
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Many dull-egoistic persons try to push their bodies into a subway train car as soon as the doors open without letting the people get out first.
Or, while waiting for a bus or a tram, they block the sidewalk with their bodies, instead of standing on the side so as not to hinder anyone from passing by, thus showing care for other people.
Or, entering the subway station hall some people hold the spring door behind them to help the following person get in, while others let the door go, crashing their “neighbor” with it.
Even when they get into a sound spiritual school, egoistic primitive people behave in the same manner. As long as the course is conducted, they feel good; they are happy and filled with bliss. But once the course is over — they start to feel bad: they have already gotten used to the situation when someone is making them feel good; and suddenly it stops… And since they do not feel good anymore, they start to experience increasing negative emotions towards the instructor and the school…
Egoistic people know only their selfish interests and resent when an obstacle in the form of someone else’s need gets in the way of their satisfaction.
When a person strongly wants something from anyone, it is an indication of the viciously protruding lower “I” of the one who wants. This triggers the mechanism of bio-energetic “vampirism” and becomes the cause of diseases of those, from whom a person wants something , and of “aggravation” of destiny of the one who wants.
But loving people are always being attentive and care not to hinder anyone in anything, but, on the contrary, use any possibility to help everybody, giving the interests of other people a higher priority than their own.
Such people are always polite and benevolent, strive never to offend anyone without a reason, even when not in the best states, being sick or tired, for instance.
In sexual relations they never obtrude themselves but wait for the moment when the partner desires the same.
… In this kind of self-analysis, detailed recommendations by Sathya Sai Baba can be of great help [6,11].
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When we have achieved the deliverance from coarse emotional states and the ability to attune to sattvic phenomena of life, this allows us to begin with meditations of “dissolving” ourselves in harmony of the surrounding space. Such meditations can be especially effective in quiet evenings, at dusk — in the forest, prairies, at lakesides, seashores, or near other water bodies. The meditation should be performed using the following formula: “There is only harmony of the surroundings: forest, lake, — but there is no me”. At that, the consciousness expands from the anahata chakra and merges with the subtlety and purity of nature.
The next fundamental stage will be mergence with the Holy Spirit in Pranava meditation (see below), and then stage-by-stage mastering of the total reciprocity (Nirodhi) in the eons of the Holy Spirit and God-the-Father.
This is how man completes the personal evolution forever, becoming a Part of the Primordial Consciousness, a Part of the Creator. After that such a soul continues to live creatively — not as a separate being but as Him.